sucks to be sick at this time,when xmas is coming.

it feels like ive fastforwarded to being 70 yrs old. Like im on my deathbed waiting to die.

Doc says its tonsovitis. I was freaked out by my own inflamed throat with pus on it. Gosh, nowonder they've been hurting me like how a knife slices through my throat. drinking water makes me feel bloated yet not drinking makes me have fever. wtf, i feel like dying..

Its making me depress, and i start thinking about depressing things. Well, i'm gonna rant all these out now.

Feels bad not heading to work, feel like its an obligation. But then again, are they gonna appreciate me for dragging my almost dying self to work. Prob not.

Have you ever feel this way? You're given this title that authorises others to instruct you around, do whatever's indicated cos you're obliged to, cos you're endowed with this so called title; when actually, you're just being their tool, to whatever great plans they have. You're just like the ends of the root, right down at the bottom. well, so what have i learnt outta joining this? probably how to send emails? (yahhh which is like wowww?) well, i just feel that these haven't been maximising my capabilities, but just simply being a TOOL.



Sucks

7:36 AM ·